My parents often ask me what I would like to do when I grow up. I honestly don't know what fits my requirements.

I don't like being bossed around.

I don't like doing office work.

I don't like being inside for hours at a time.

I want to dress the way I wanna dress.

I wanna be able to listen to loud Black Sabbath while I'm working. (Music helps me concentrate, the louder the better.)

I wanna be able to exercise my creativity somehow.

I wanna hang around unique people.

I don't wanna bother with computers.


I kinda like the idea of being an entertainer of some kind. Musician most of all, but shit, the only instrument I can play is the harmonica, and how often is harmonica used today? I can act decently. Perhaps I'll take a shot at being a TV star of some kind? Or a comic-book creator/writer?

Really, I just want to be famous because I have various messages to get out into the public. But to spread these messages, I have to be recognized somehow. People will listen if you make a big splash. Fuck money, fuck bazillion-dollar mansions, fuck servants and foreign cars and solid gold toilets. I've got more important things to worry about nyan! I don't want to TAKE from people; I want to give and share with people.

There's this fantasy I've always had about being the next Abbie Hoffman. Making a big statement with my essays and bizarre sense of humor. But nobody reads these days (which pisses me off all the more). Perhaps I could give it a shot anyway.

I want to be noticed by other people, and I want to make a great difference for the good of all humanity. That's my life's mission. I want the world to know that it's not too late to learn how to love and forget how to hate (to quote the earliest lullaby I ever heard... Ozzy's Crazy Train XD). I want to serve as an example of what's good and right with the world, instead of being a suburbanite WASP housewife with 2.5 kids strapped into the point of suffocation in an SUV, or being a greedy and prissy celebrity.

I don't think college and degrees and shit are all that important to what I wanna do. Maybe if I wanted to be a politician, but I don't. Fuck politicians. They have good intentions (a few of them), but they always end up corrupt and power-hungry. I wanna help return power to the people, rather than the most incompetent and dishonest among us.

Do I even have a place in the world with my dreams, or am I a strange visitor from the past with no memories of that bygone age?